I posted up on twitter a link via Neil Gaiman to the essay by Salmon Rushdie Whither Moral Courage. It was an interesting read having just finished The Hunger Games movie for the first time. (No I haven’t read the books….yet.)
What do I stand for in the world. Sometimes I have a strong voice on a topic but I admit, I don’t always share it. I admit at time I act like I was born a Libra and try to balance every side, not rock the boat, not make anyone angry or hateful. It’s not really a position I’m proud of sometimes and I don’t know why I do it, well maybe I do. At primary school I was bullied and even to this day when I think about putting my opinion out there I hark back to certain memories and feelings that come from doing that and then suffering the consequences. A bit stupid at 32 to worry about what some stuck up little blonde bitch and her mindless minions thought back then, but it has left a bit of a lasting impression. It shouldn’t.
I’ve been quiet on here lately, not sure what to say, not sure what parts of me to share, not rocking the boat or getting to out there, but you know what? Fuck that. I am who I am and while I’m still a work in progress I like who I am, who I am becoming and where I am going. Yes thousands will not like me, yes perhaps millions would argue with me had they the chance but that means that millions would stand beside me, thousands will like me and that is just the way of it. So why should I not just be myself, speak my voice and live.
It is late on Sunday night so forgive me my blatant typos and errors, but I had to get this out of my head, I had to say my piece, because you’ll be hearing more from me and you don’t have to stick around to read my opinions, read my writing, read my mind and soul as they spill forth but here I am….and to quote from RENT
Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me