Have I told you lately that I love you?

Death is always hard, whether it’s the very young, the very old and every age in between, to lose a person who has touched your heart and soul leaves a mark of the loss inside you. Whether it’s expected or not, it doesn’t matter, the loss still hits you no matter how long you’ve been preparing for it.

It’s why I live in certain ways, I finish phone calls with loved ones telling them that I love them. I’m not afraid to tell my friends and family how much I love them, that I miss them, or to hug the stuffing out of them. Because who knows when they will be gone and who knows when I will be gone. I don’t want to be gone and have anyone doubt for a moment that I cared about them.

So today as we mourn a death in our family I plan on making sure every single person knows I love them, like them, and there will be hugs.

Life is fleeting, love for all you’re worth.

And now. #attackhugs

 

Life lessons with @hitRECordJoe

So this morning I woke to find a friend had reblogged this video.  Lip Sync Battle with Joseph Gordon Levitt, Stephen Merchant and Jimmy Fallon

Still in bed watching it, I was in what we in the gigglebusiness call…. The Mega Giggles, it was truly an awesome video to see first thing and start the day with a laugh and a grin. It then led to me and said friend who shared it discussing it and the performance of Joe.

She had this to say “I just love that he’s not afraid to put himself out there and be silly.”

It made me think. So often I don’t do this (not thinking, okay yeah maybe I don’t think much, but I mean I don’t put myself out there. Smartasses), even things like a blog post because I’m worried about judgement and what people will think. (Ironic for someone who loves being in the spotlight and misses being on stage like whoa.) Then you look at Mr JGL and everything he is achieving, and he wouldn’t be achieving squat if he wasn’t putting himself out there. Sure he had a foot in the door already from a younger age but that doesn’t mean at the grand old age of 33 I’m out of time already. I need to take a note from his book, get out there, not be afraid to give it 100%, and just live life large and smiling.

This is my life lesson for the day, with that in mind I think today might be a day to work on Babypire. Maybe even do that vlog I’ve been putting off for about two years now.

I’m going to life large and laugh, like JGL, he’s like pelican fly. (So lame, so had to. I regret nothing.)

A little related note… On watching this the second time out at my computer I laughed so hard I ended up coughing and my little man K came over and patted me on the back. “There, there, Mummy, it’s going to be okay. You’re good.” The Kmonster really is cute overload.

Never give up on your dreams

Okay, second post in a day…aren’t you all lucky.

Saw this on Facebook and thought I would share it before I forgot. 

Peasant, make me a list

I’m not perhaps the best at being organised. I mean at work I’m great and fine, I get organised and things get done, when it’s for myself…well I have this tendency to procrastinate, and usually that’s because of fear. Well for the big things. I’m not scared of doing the dishes, I put that off because well…princess complex. I still live in hope of the day my magical fairies or tweeting birds arrive and do them for me.

But the big things that scare me, well I’m the queen of putting those things off. Whether it’s with watching Practical Magic for the millionth time, watching an episode of CSI I didn’t like the first time it was on, treating the internet like a fridge and checking every two seconds to see if something more interesting as happened… I know I’m not alone in that. God how many minutes of my life have I wasted refreshing FB or twitter or tumblr or any of the other social media sites to see if something is going on, only to keep doing it because nothing is going on but something just might! It’s terrible. And it’s something I’m getting better at not doing. Next step is to organise my days off, I’ve got things I want to achieve and I am going to achieve them… Granted some of those things I have no clue at all how I’m going to achieve them…but we’ll figure that out. We have to.

With that in mind I’m going to start with the whole list thing again.

Today’s list….

Ring the Panel and Paint people and sound like an idiot as I trip over words to get my car repaired tomorrow…that one gets a tick already. Been there…bumbled that.

Work out (Still deciding if we go for walk in the cold or if we do some dance/pilates/core secrets)

Clean the kitchen

Clean my car out

Write this blog post

Writing – Oh wow is this a biggie. It needs a list of its own so I can pick what I do today

• Plot more and write more for Babypire
• Edit Nyssa’s Tale
• Rewrite Eiridis
• Finish one of my short stories/novellas (A rose by any other name, Derek’s Destruction, Zarina’s story, Avenging the fae, the fairy tale princess story, COTI- Krista)
• Finish plotting The Rosicroix
• RP posts

And a few other things on top of that which I can’t put on here because of reasons. Oh and there are the things on my list that probably aren’t for today like

Find an agent

Find a publisher and get a contract

Design my art deco costume for next year

Birth reports that I owe

Finish all my in progress necklaces.

But hey, let’s not bite off more than we can chew in one day. Overwhelmed much, why yes, yes I am. Okay, list made, now to work out what I can realistically do today, what I can’t, what I have to.

And then…oh god….the tough part. It’s time to actually get to it.

Wish me luck.

Dream you did it, of course you have to pay

So last night I had a dream. Okay it was this morning, somewhere between the alarm going off at six am and K coming in to jump on me. It wasn’t a good dream and people pissed me off. I mean I was raging homicidal mad and hurt. And then I woke up rather violently for mummy cuddles, which were nice but not actually part of the story…

Now we’ve all been here right? We’ve all had dreams where the people we love and/or are friends with hurt us, upset us, tried to murder us in dreams, right? The question then becomes, how accountable are those people for the action of their dream-self.

Am I the only one who does hold people just a little bit accountable?

I mean I know it isn’t their fault and everything, but chances are if you upset me in a dream and you come into my sphere of influence before the dream has faded well…

Well actually you’re more likely to get evil eyes, a surly tone and perhaps a smack against the forearm. I can’t help it, you were mean so you deserve this shit.

I can’t be alone in this? Surely? Hopefully?….I’m just going to go and sit in the corner now until someone reassures me I’m not the only one who is nuts on this planet.